kuHek miNd-numbing words

Why must you ignore your mother’s request when you know she really needs it. At this very moment, you know your parents don’t have much time anymore in this world. Average people live until age of 65. My father passed away at 65. So at any possible way, if they said something, just do it without much question. They didn’t ask much anyways, right? This is the last minute chance that you have to gather all the good deeds for obeying your way to heaven. When they are not around anymore, then you know how much regret you have that you didn’t spend much time with them, and the thing that you should do and don’t. Your social life is still there, not going anywhere, believe me you still got a lot of time for that. But does your parent?! One thing that i really want to do is to learn ‘mandi jenazah’ before it’s too late.

Look in the mirror.

What did you see?

yourself

self respect

word….

I was called to join the meeting attended by board of directors to do this specific paper work for submission. I was there since 10am and was served with nasik lemak and kuih so that we won’t be going out for lunch. Since I was there in the morning, i didn’t see this one particular female director to do her part, her representative was also not there. The rest of the directors were there filling their portion.

After 2pm the big boss came in along with her. She kept yapping asking whether her potion was completed. WTF! you were not there how possible your part been filled. Of course it was still blank. Stupid witch. Then all of us, including the big boss vet thru what we have done and commented on the part that we were not agreed with. This female director was known by her blondie stereotype attitude, asking the stupid question at the wrong time but pretended that she is smart than the rest of us. She asked the big boss when is the election, suddenly out of the blue. Then he answered the erection happens every morning. Wah.. to my surpirse dirty joke. Then she start giggled and the other directors laughing gleely.

Now I get it why she become one of the top management in the company. She just an entertainment to the rest. The rest of them want an excitement as a way to manage their stress and they choose to pick on her. But to her knowledge, she is appointed to her position because of her brain. Hello…. what brain?! you have none my dear in case you don’t know… what a disgrace to the female gender!! Even if you really want that position please don’t use your your blond hair and touch up face and wiling to be picked on by them. I just don’t understand why she let her self to be like that.. Come on, women liberty!! stand up for your self, for your pride..

such a biatch!!

When people grew older, they tend to forget to respect others that’s around them regardless they know each other or not. These old fart beginning to make remarks that is not so ears candy to others. But to them they don’t care since they are old and expect other people to respect their opinion. And the most common remarks that I hate is " aku lebih byk makan garam dari kamu" meaning, i have more knowledge and experience than you do. What a laugh of a century. Come on, gimme a good reason why you didn’t insured your mouth.

My belief, if you want to be respected, you must first respect others so that we can live in peace and harmony.

Have you forgotten all the sleepless nite that she has gone through just to care when you are not well..

Have you forgotten all the stress she has to face when you threw your tantrum…

Have you forgotten that she has to spend her last penny just to buy your favorite toy..

Have you forgotten that she didn’t eat enough for a few days just to make sure you get your daily healthy meal..

Have you forgotten that she didn’t spend a lot on her, no spa, no bling bling, no branded wardrobe, just to see you get through your highest education..

But when her job is done and you are well groom to be an educated being, did you remember to say thank you..

Did you remember to pay back her kindness even in a small token or favor..

Did you remember to treat her well and not hurting her feeling..

Just because that one incident that you think she didn’t understand you, you forgotten all the good things she has done and sacrifice and all you could remember is that one bad memory..

When that happen, just remember the small thing..

When she cooked your favorite meal,

When she sent you to school during rainy day,

When she stay all nite just to accompany you finishing your homework,

That’s the love of a mother.

She can take care a dozen of you, but can you take care of her?!

Yesterday I was waiting train to seremban at KL Sentral. While waiting I saw a cute little lady wearing Heineken vintage baby-t in maroon. She can speak fluently Malay. I thought well chinese can speak well malay too. Then I saw her mother walking behind her with big lugage, and she wearing a perfect baju kurung with head covered. They are perfectly malay and muslim. And why in the earth that she allows her daugther to wear heineken t-shirt. Doesn’t she know that brand belong to what product?! My dear.. sometime don’t be too arogant to know something that is a basic general knowledge. Rather than be a walking advertisement for heineken. DO you want to know what product that Heineken carries? it is beer my friend, and allowing your daughter to be a walking advertisement for beer is out of the question if you are truly a muslim..

*Sigh* i don’t know what’s going to happen next….

If only i speak the right line at the right time

If only i dare to do whatever that you challenge me to do

if only i am brave enough to say i can do it without hesistance

if only i am at the right place at the right time

I would be a different person that I am today….

If onLy

You are being so bitchy about the little money you have put into that little peculiar car. The truth is you only put in the downpayment for which you got it from selling the old van. And a few months that you gladly paying the installment and this current roadtax. You wanna be calculative?! Here it is. This is about the car ONLY not to take any under different circumtances for what you have done to her. But yet you are SUCCESSFULLY convince her other wise.

You paid the downpayment which is rm3000. Then add on the current roadtax rm500. And also those few months that you paid. Let say 10 months (which i doubt) equivelant to RM3150. In total is RM6650. That is your portion freaking 6650. Then what I have been paying you would care less. As if it is my responsibility to provide you with vehicle for free. That car is been 36 months minus 10 months that you paid. So I have been paying for 26*315=8190. Not include the services that I been doin for the car maintenance, changing the wheels, and not to forget I have to pay for your fragging parking ticket when you went to Perak,KL and don’t know where else

So open your eyes and ears! Even small kid can differentiate the number 6 and 8 and which is bigger. Common man, you know it even on our father’s last breath, I am not getting anything from his heritage coz he thought that I can survive and be on my own feet. Everything else went to my other siblings. The house, the car, you guys got it. Even our parents saving you vulture clean it all without shame. But I am thankful for I have brain and the great opportunity that I grab to survive. My late father once said, "I don’t have wealth to give it to my children, what I can give is to send you to school for gaining knowledge and survive." I still remember.

Do I complaining?!!

Today i notice something that money is not everything. You can give all the money you have but someone prefered your existance and your company rather that your money that ruin the relationship at the first place.

Human behavior is very misterious.

Trust is earned not given. You must earned someone’s trust by doing what has been told properly according to their wish. But if that trust is being used against you, what should you do. The closest person in your heart use that trust to cover up other person bad behaviour, wrong doing and as a result it jepordize your reputation.

If that person is one of the person that will bring you to heaven and you must obey their saying, what should you do? Every turn you take, you must not diasppointed them. I just obey your command by not giving you any of my trust. Feel like zombie, I’m walking and doing things without a soul.

Just because who you are, I MUST obey you. But our relationship is just Only to that without any extantion.