kuHek miNd-numbing words

Have you ever run in 100m? it’s so neveous raking and the energy is all out. Too many people give you support. All the cheers and screams sometimes annoyed you. Even tho it is for the good caused. its you that have to finish the race. Nobody can help you. They just cheering at the back. If i could transfer all those energy from their cheers and scream to me. May be i can run faster. At the end, i am the one that have to finish the game. Nobody else can.

Same as the real life. ppl can tell their stories and give advise. Whether i want to listen or not, thats different story. At the end I am the one that make the final decision.

In this modern era, i thought ppl will have open mind on any issue related to race, religion, or gender. But I guess the oldies that still in the top management that are not replaced yet still have the bigot mentality.

Yep my office is no differ from others. The top management belief is, as long as you go to the same church as he is, regardless whether you are capable in delivering the task assigned to you or not, you will be promoted in the top management and get a good bonus and increment.

But as us who is different religion, we will stuck at our position as long as we wish to stay in this company, or better yet, until our retirement age.

But.. when i think about it, what kind of crap is that? He, as the representative of this company should act maturely and professionalism should be taken into consideration when making decision. Acting like a budak hingusan. Full of bull shit. Imagine, he suppose to lead the company forward and making higher profit with less cost, but when the top management doesn’t know what they are doing, all crap and more crap as an outcome.

For intance, the EDP manager doesn’t know the password of the servers (many servers). How’s that possible, is like you don’t know what is a mouse when your task is to troubleshoot the PC. Gezz just dun get me the real mouse or even a pest control if i tell you my mouse give me problem. That’s a bonus point if she know what pest control is.. To that level her knowledge of technology, but she is the HEAD of department of IT.

So if the compnay doesn’t achieve its target, don’t blame us on delivering the task assign by your selected stupid mannequin. In a way we are doing a stupid job assigned by a stupid ppl. What’s that make me? Stupid ppl as well…

I rest my case….

You can see but you are blind

You can hear but you are deaf

You have heart but you are dead

You only see what you want to see

You only hear what you want to hear

The heart beats with the rhythm of death

If there is only 1 way to heaven

why must you choose the dead end….

Today is still a good monday. But not as good as last week, but still. hehe My boss is on leave until tomorrow. So I have 2 days without any stupid interuption.

Yesterday I went kenduri at relative house. Tiring.. what not with my 2 rascals i have to make them behave and stay still and not make so much noise. They are manageable at 1st until they felt tired and exhausted. At least they still behaving good, thank God!

After having 2 kids, I am very concern if people invite me to kenduri or any family function. It is not that I dun want to meet them or trying to be anti-social. The reason is because i feel tired, very exhausted to keep my 2 rascals to be in their best behaviour. They are behaving but they cling to me. They move a few steps, then glued back to me. One on my back, the other on my lap. Sometimes both on my lap. If it for a few minutes, can tahan la.. if it hours… kebas kaki wei.. Imagine you have 20kg on your laps and cannot sit still, wiggling and moving… bump into your face, knock over your lips, give you chap lips.. The worst is when you think the next day is Monday and sunday feel so short or worst ..not exist…

But if i didn’t go, what happen with hidup bermasyarakat and bersaudara? At least I just want to show my existance. I attended your function because I care. Not because I want to eat free, that beside the point.

I was thinking, what if i hold a function and nobody want to come. That will be a nightmare. I have a daugther, even tho she is still tiny and way far to the future to think about this, but the point is what if nobody attend her wedding day. She surely depends on me and my husban on the hidup bermasyarakat skill, so do I who depend on my parents. It’s not just about the wedding or other function, what about kematian. What is something unexpected like death happen? Is not that I want it but what if? What am I suppose to do if i dunno anybody and still depend on my parent who lives far away.

So the point is I have to built my social skill from now by attending any function that relatives or friends invited. To build up the networking of people. So if anything happen good or bad by all means i know who is who.

P/s aiyo my grammer so retarded.. hahah Layan……

Sometimes when you said something in a disscussion ppl tend to misinterpret the message of what you are saying. They tend to drop all the good point and just listen to what they want to hear and see what they want to see and miss the whole point. So what is the purpose of saying at the 1st place.

Just be silence……….