If only i speak the right line at the right time
If only i dare to do whatever that you challenge me to do
if only i am brave enough to say i can do it without hesistance
if only i am at the right place at the right time
I would be a different person that I am today….
If onLy
You are being so bitchy about the little money you have put into that little peculiar car. The truth is you only put in the downpayment for which you got it from selling the old van. And a few months that you gladly paying the installment and this current roadtax. You wanna be calculative?! Here it is. This is about the car ONLY not to take any under different circumtances for what you have done to her. But yet you are SUCCESSFULLY convince her other wise.
You paid the downpayment which is rm3000. Then add on the current roadtax rm500. And also those few months that you paid. Let say 10 months (which i doubt) equivelant to RM3150. In total is RM6650. That is your portion freaking 6650. Then what I have been paying you would care less. As if it is my responsibility to provide you with vehicle for free. That car is been 36 months minus 10 months that you paid. So I have been paying for 26*315=8190. Not include the services that I been doin for the car maintenance, changing the wheels, and not to forget I have to pay for your fragging parking ticket when you went to Perak,KL and don’t know where else
So open your eyes and ears! Even small kid can differentiate the number 6 and 8 and which is bigger. Common man, you know it even on our father’s last breath, I am not getting anything from his heritage coz he thought that I can survive and be on my own feet. Everything else went to my other siblings. The house, the car, you guys got it. Even our parents saving you vulture clean it all without shame. But I am thankful for I have brain and the great opportunity that I grab to survive. My late father once said, "I don’t have wealth to give it to my children, what I can give is to send you to school for gaining knowledge and survive." I still remember.
Do I complaining?!!
Today i notice something that money is not everything. You can give all the money you have but someone prefered your existance and your company rather that your money that ruin the relationship at the first place.
Human behavior is very misterious.
Trust is earned not given. You must earned someone’s trust by doing what has been told properly according to their wish. But if that trust is being used against you, what should you do. The closest person in your heart use that trust to cover up other person bad behaviour, wrong doing and as a result it jepordize your reputation.
If that person is one of the person that will bring you to heaven and you must obey their saying, what should you do? Every turn you take, you must not diasppointed them. I just obey your command by not giving you any of my trust. Feel like zombie, I’m walking and doing things without a soul.
Just because who you are, I MUST obey you. But our relationship is just Only to that without any extantion.
